It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

Journey

Have you given a thought about your future? Have you made plans and set targets that you want to achieve within a certain timeframe? Are they realistic?

Well, at least, these are what i have been thinking about recently. Plans and hopes for so many areas in life.

On another note, i want to give thanks to God once again for ALL and EVERYTHING in my life. From the good, the bad, the falls, the praise reports, challenges, opportunities, favors, the blessings.

Recently, a major event took place - going to another firm. As much as i am excited about the new environment, i am also quite sad at the thought of leaving my current firm where i have made some good and nice colleagues. I kinda regret and feel sad for not cherishing and spending more time with some of these colleagues. Sigh.. But i know, we will remain in touch, even when i leave the firm, which i take great comfort in. Long and short, i know i will miss them.

Please pray for me as i move to the new working environment.

I haven't been dilligent in my studies as well. Which is a bad thing. Sigh again.. There's no motivation and drive. I need to catch up!

I want to pursue my passion! When will i achieve, how should i begin, what is stopping me, why am i delaying it? Sigh... I really need to get down to action and not just talk about it all day long. Please pray for me too.

A picture speaks a thousand words.



Here's me, one of the many pics which was taken in my holiday to Australia.
Foreground - Me
Background - Sydney Opera House and Harbour Bridge
Theme: "Portrait of Self-Actualisation - The Future"

Sigh.. Let me know if the feeling is mutual.

It's AUSTRALIA!!!

Finally........the time has come.......the long awaited overseas trip with.........and not just with Davina.......there's Matthias too.....Too cool man.... And it's going to be a first-time for lots of things.

For instance:-

1. First trip to Aussie

2. First overseas trip with Davina and Matthias

3. First winter experience

4. First SIA flight

5. First totally self-funded holiday

Hahaha.... i think i'm just going nuts at the thought of it. Just got to fuel the excitement untill the trip is over.

On the other hand, i'm quite worried about work as well. As i know that i've seemingly taken leave during a very crucial period. But i think, my boss understands. At least i know that no one's indispensable. But i really appreciate working with my boss thus far. Learnt alot, fell alot, but those incidences were great learning curves.

Anyway, please pray for me in respect of my work, studies and health. The subject "Public Law" has taken a great toil out of me. Imbalance of inputs versus understanding = "It's time to catch up!" As for health, i haven't been feeling well these days with my voice now sounding rather nasal often, coupled with the occasional coughs, ear discomforts and frequent need to clear my nose. These collectively, are simply too awful bearing. I'm still on medication, but i would appreciate prayers too! =) Thank you!

Lastly, here are some photos which were taken during Jadyn & Caleb's Wedding!

Hallelujah! It's Easter Sunday! Thank God for our saviour Jesus Christ!

Recently, i had one of the best and fruitful cell grp mtg. The message was great. It felt as if your acu-points has just been unblocked, and your blood (message) flows all over you.

"Understand how valuable you are in God and how much He loves you. Then-on, as you go out and win the loss, you would be able to see the value that God has placed in them."

"People matters to God"

"Everyone is valuable to Him"

Yesterday's easter service drama was good. Reminds me once again of the price that Jesus paid for Man's sins.

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To all who are anxiously waiting for the 21st Birthday photos at Bibik @ Pandang, thank you for your patience! =) Please let me know if you would like to have a copy of any of the photos developed for you. As previously promised, here's a sneak preview of some of the photos taken.

~ Restaurant Venue: Their Signage at the Entrance ~

~ Part of the Restaurant Indoor ~

~ Colleagues ~

~ Best Friends ~

~ Adorable Cell Group Mates ~

~ Forever friends - JAMSI ~

Tadaaa... For the rest of the photos and video, please look out for a photo album which shall tag along with Jessica soon when you see her the next time....

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Lastly, just want to gives thanks to God for his grace and blessings. And i pray that the Lord will be with us and keep us well in the coming weeks as we go through tough rides in our work place and studies.

Recently, i felt that i'm not on track in my relationship with God. Such as, i think i have been complacent and have not been committed in my quiet time. I really feel like i'm leaning on my own strength and not His - which should not be the way at all. It feels terrible. I seem to have lost confidence as well. Well, coupled with many many thoughts about life, it just fuels that awful feeling. I need to get back right on track!

School has started - last Saturday. It was a lecture of the 4 subjects for the academic year. I could grasp well 2 out of 4, 3rd one was fine, 4th one was hmm...need to work hard on it. School's at Bugis, Burlington Square, beside Sim Lim. 10-15 mins walk from the station. Classes on Fridays (night) and Saturdays (afternoon to evening). Please pray for me - wisdom to know, focus, understanding to apply, dilligence in revision, right attitude to learning and finances to save and pay.

My company has a CNY dinner on Fri night. I have been double-minded and feels that it's difficult to make a decision. But i know it can actually be simple, by prioritising - academic. It's really hard to forgo a chance to have a getogether dinner with the Co. Please tell me, everything happens for a reason.

I haven't been well recently. I have been sneezing a lot which isn't a common thing that i do. And each sneeze would often come with a running nose. It's a cold? Flu? Imagine seeing a big patch of white instead of the table top. Call me a tissue champion perhaps. Bad right? And strangely, it can go away and come back fast. For a moment, nothing, and then with not much of a warning, it starts again. A friend of mine says that i should take more water and vitamin C. It's that the way?

Work - has been maddness. I'm happy but i'm tired. Happy for a good boss, tired of late nights to do as much as i could. To sum it simply, the overseas phone call made that much difference. There's just so much to share about work. Leave it for small talks.

Sermon last week. Many points made, but the last part just hit the nail - Love (not much in the context of BGR, but rather family).

Let me be happy...

Hohoohoooo!

21st Birthday was great - simple and great company! It was a great day! Thank you to all who came, especially to Davina and Matthias for your great assistance in the preparation and thoughfulness in so many areas! Thank you!! *Toasts*

I would also like to thank my family, relatives, cellgroup mates, colleagues and friends for coming as well as the blessings you brought along!

Well, almost a week has passed and i must say, i feel great. Somehow, turning 21 feels different in its special way. At least, for me, it's a great milestone. Since day 1 on mother Earth till now, there are simply countless occassions of ups and downs in my life. Downs are quite repetitive themselves, whereas the ups can be quite cool and surprising at times. BUT, no matter what, i'm convinced that it's all according to God's plan and purpose for me in life. Well, to put it simply - "If it wasn't for what had happened in the past, i would not be where i am in life right now - Everything happens for a reason"

Days before i started out in Kindergarden - I remember.. playing toys and eating lots of goodies and snacks. Those which make you persuade and tug at your elders and close one to buy and sometimes make you thing that getting it means a whole world to you. <...time flies...>

Days at Kindergarden began... - Hmm.. on memory, it was more of a nightmare than a sweet 2 years. Why? Cause i cried too often. Till this stage, i dun really know why i cried that often then. Not that anyone was really bullying me.. But just, perhaps, it's just being kids.. <...time flies...>

Primary School commenced... - That was where i met my best friend for life - Davina. That was in Pri 3. Well, those days, there's just too much to say. From the silly ones to those occasions where i was scolded and many other uneventful sad stuff. Too many to name. Nevertheless, in short summary - Crocodile, canteen, prefectorial board photos, fish pond, uneven field, fish cake, mango, plastic bead - magic door, school bus, Mag Sng, salvation , cleanliness competition, penmanship... All in all, i had mixed feelings about my time there and it's time to move on. <...time flies...>

Sec School... - Studies, stress, no life, low, tedious, taxing. I guess we leave this part aside for the future. <... time flies...>

...tune in to the future soon. Jess's sleepy... thanks for reading to the end.

I'm back! Back to homeland! Firm's trip to Chiangmai was good, not just because of the relatively cheap shopping spree at various places,i.e night bazaar which was just located right in front of the hotel i was staying and etc. Well, this trip, being my maiden overseas trip without family members, i would say, i had a wonderful and memorable holiday. Definitely, closer bonds have been fostered among peers and colleagues and i'm glad that it did. Chatting much more than ever before with colleagues whom i hardly talk much in the office. Well, all in all, i'm just overjoyed. Haha. On a side note, there were also disturbing times which i encountered and i shan't elaborate here. As irritated as i was, i guess, i should have been more bold then in speaking out. Praise God that everyone had a safe trip back home. If given a choice, i won't mind going overseas again alone with friends. haha.. Who's keen? =D

Love all of you guys! And remember to RSVP! *Cheers*

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